Sick. Of. Everything!

Another night of turmoil and chaos...

Dads blaming me for the whole CPS incident, when really it was my mom who told the cops...but he is blaming me. He said he was going to get me a crappy pre paid phone thats only used for calling...GAH! 

He expects everything to go away with just the snap of a finger, but i can't. He must really enjoy putting all the blame on me! He must enjoy seeing me cry, because to the point, thats all i have left...

But he's probably right,

All of this stupid mess is my fault!

Well, Back to my Friend...Lets hope this night turns out better...:/

Kaitlin

Wow, Just wow!

So every night at 8:30 my dad calls, but throughout the day, he texts and facebook me. when i tell him its getting on my nerves, he calls it "disrespectfulnesss" 

He accused me of being friends with his half-brother (which i don't speak to) and listed him as my brother. WTH?! I'm not. When i told him, he yelled at me even more...

He blames me for EVERYTHING and causes drama. That's all he really is, Drama. He's nothing but a child. Why should i respect him when he doesn't respect me? and don't give me that "he's your father" crap either.. When he starts acting like one, maybe i will show him respect. He wanted to speak to My brother, but he wasn't available, but he kept saying "let me speak to your brother". He blamed me for my mom calling between 4-8 and also advised me not to bring my ipod, why? It beats me...All i know is, I need to move. and i need to move this summer. Idk how much more of his drama i can take!!! His drama, turmoil, chaos, whatever you wanna call it. GRRRRR >:(

Kaitlin

Selfish Selfish Selfish

I finally broke the news to my dad about wanting to move back to PA and he did NOT take it well. He's like no that will not happen. so i ignore him cuz i'm mad and he's like thought so and i'm like just cuz i ignore you don't mean i think you're right. apparently thats backtalk, and he's calling my phone company. When he wants us to stay here he's just thinking about himself. he don't realize it could be better for me and Alex. When he says "you deserve both parents close by" he's thinking about himself. My parents are too close as it is! Why do you think they fight so much? HELLO?! Do you get it? Is anybody listening??? Guess not. Because all you care about is YOURSELF! And i'm getting tired of it!!! Gahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Kaitlin

P.S-Things with CPS guy went better than expected, still nervous though...

CPS-Child Protective Services, HELP ME!

I decided to ride my lil bro's motor scooter. She comes out to know if i want any lunch, sure enough my brother catches me...so we all get into an argument, and i run into my room, slam the doors and turn the ceiling fan on. about 5 minutes later, i wanna get on the computer, and mom ain't on, which is unusual. I hear a strange man's voice, and just my luck its CPS. So, i'm like awwwwwwwwww hell. and turn the music as high as it can go and lock myself in moms room. 

There will be a follow up after i talk to CPS.

Fathers Day...

Some people might say i'm lucky, well honestly, sometimes my life isn't all that great...

Today was fathers day so he decided to take is to Sterling State Park...well i got upset because of the stupid wind, but everybody (dad, Dads gf (Sheri), and her daughter (Becca) all get mad at me.

Becca Rudely yells "CHECK YOUR ATTITUDE RIGHT NOW" etc etc and so i posted on facebook i'm like "who are you to yell at me when ya ain't even related to me" dad sees it and now he gets mad and his like Becca POLITELY told you to knock it off, she didn't yell. and i'm like ok you call that polite? Anyway, Sheri is also pissed and decides to yell at me too. I swear i wanted to yell at her and say shut up, you're not my mom so just don't even interfere. 

She wants to do everything with us!! Go to see my family, go camping with us. She brings her annoying dog over all the time and tells MY cat to stop aggravating her. She don't have room to speak because its the cats house, not Otis. Last year she went to VA with us to go see family and she's hogging up all the time I need to spend with them...

HELLO ITS MY FAMILY NOT YOURS!!!!!!!! Ughh...she annoys me. She means well, but she annoys me!!

Kaitlin

The scapegoat...Part II

My dad called.............again.............

Apparently what happened Saturday was my fault because apparently my mom doesn't want me seeing my dad on Sunday for fathers day...He's all like YOU NEED TO CLEAR THIS UP and you know what dad? YOUR STARTING TO TICK ME OFF!!!

I'm sick of being put in the middle by him. It's like i have the magical power to fix everything, and i don't...It wasn't even my fault! I didn't say anything until my mom saw the bruise on my eye...Gr. Can this live be over yet??

Kaitlin

What happened Saturday...

Last Saturday i was with my dad...

We got into an argument because i wanted to move with my mom to PA. After our big fight he acts like everything is normal again and says "now, sit down and watch the movie with your dad" and i'm like "Your a father, not a dad" since he always says "it takes anyone to be a father, but someone special to be a dad" He slapped me, but it made my eye swell halfway shut. The next morning it was fine, no bruises or nothing, and his girlfriend sees me applying ice onto the thing to make it swell down more since it was still swollen. Shes like "what happened" and dads like "she got slapped for being disrespectful" and i'm like you don't slap someone hard enough to make their eye swell...and Sheri (dads gf) is like well you shouldnt've back talked...

Monday Morning:

i wake up, and my eye is PURPLE! I'm like wtf?! was that from dad? well i come home from school and my mom sees my eye and she asks what happened and she's like OK. The next day after piano she takes me to the police station to report it. CPS has been notified and Thursday, the CPS guy shows up at my door, I'm like aww hell!!! 

Maybe this event will help us on our case to move...who knows?!

Kaitlin

Should I Go or Should I Stay?

My dad calls every night at 8:30...to talk to me and my brother,

My mom had sent him an email stating that she didn't want me over at my dads for fathers day because he gave me a black eye (I'll explain in a different blog). Well once again i'm put in the middle when he says "how do you feel about this" why am i constantly under pressure? Why can't i be a normal, 14 year old chick??? Oh wait, I KNOW. because my parents are divorced and can't get along!!! God.

What should i do??

Kaitlin

Schools Out

Well,

School has been let out Thursday (June 16th!). Its about time! Too much homework and getting up early, and every other school problem a teen could possibly have. It was a VERY emotional day for me that day! I had to say goodbye to all my friends :'( and live with the fact I'm not completely over my ex. 

I don't think i ever will be. People say he's a douche, but he's really fun to be around. As far as my friends go, it was really upsetting because i may never see them again, because i might be moving. 

Sometimes i question the fact if i really want to move to Pennsylvania, and if I'm making the right decision, but my heart is telling me that i am. I don't even know if I'm moving yet, because we have to go through court, because my dad wants us to stay here...but he doesn't realize that having a break from each other is what we need right now. I don't know if I'm ever making the right decision...but i don't care about that. He got me a laptop and i have a tv in my room, but sometimes i wonder if he got me those things just as a bribe to want to stay in Michigan. Tomorrow (Saturday, June 18th) is my friends graduation party! I'm sooo psyched for that! And hopefully, it will make me forget about all the emotional stress i have to carry on my shoulders.